I Prepare To Die

At night,

from time to time...

i see myself flying.

Flying so high that I become afraid of the landing that I might have.

Not a landing that i should have 

(something safe and sound)

but a landing inside the unknown.

Once I've awakened

and I have my dream state to the appropriate place, 

i often just sit and wonder...,

am i prepared to die?

oh hell no, not I..., and why do I fly.., 

and when i fly, why so very high?

Why don't I ever recall a landing?

When that is of course my greatest fear...,

or have i found the place called 

Purgatory?

Why cant i just land..,

On Earth, just once?

I return to this flight in my dreams at night

and all I ever want to do is land,

and I think that I sould just try to remain calm

and while i'm in flight,

try to just enjoy this ride into my fright.

I am for sure that I love God and that God loves me,

so i should just be able to enjoy a nice flight...,

right?

Then I recall those Footsteps and

how ugly Gods beauty really is..,

and I have to ask myself,

am i prepared to die?

DWHopkins

9/18/2025