What To Do Now?

I’ve spent all my time fighting

To make you change your mind.

I know you’re through with me,

I say it aloud to myself

Yet I can’t believe a word.

I don’t care about what you say

I can’t care about anything but us.

You said some things I just can’t ignore,

You made me realise that I love you more.

I needed you but you left me first

And I couldn’t watch you walk away.

I changed to try and be the one you want

To be the one to fight by your side

To help with whatever you’re going through,

But you just let me go all by myself.

I’ve spent all my time trying

To fix something that couldn’t be saved,

It was broken to pieces from the start.

So you decided to wreck me more

By saying that you loved me.

I told you to go, I couldn’t deal anymore

But to be with you, I will always adore

The thought of you being here with me.

I won’t know what to do.

So if I decide to move on from this

And to ignore all the painful “what ifs”

Will that make you come back

To haunt me all over again?

Like we’ve just begun our chapter all over again?

Will you pass me on the street

And only see a stranger

Or will you cross the road because

You won’t want to look at me and

See me starry eyed with eyes still for you

Will that make you rethink all we’ve been through?

Or will you just think it never happened?