Through the Chaos

I know the insinuation

the one that won’t abdicate

It grows into a quake

And you will sit with it

Your chest constricts

Your breath feels caged

You wear a smirk

but inside you temper

I’ve sensed the neurosis

Wriggle my chest

PTSD replay

Burning the midnight oil

Social fear silencing

What I wanted to say,

Panic attacks striking

OCD on replay

I’ve colonized in that prison

built inside my head

Apprehensive of futurity

haunted by what’s said

Roving at midnight

Enervation in the day

losing myself

In the conceptions that won’t meander

But hear me –

Chaos won’t last forever

It breaks, it precedes

And we rise together

Family that lives,

Friends who don’t let go –

that kind of support

Is the strongest conviction I know

So, when the weight feels endless,

And the night has no end

Lean on the hands of family, of friends

Their love is the ballast

their resolution is your own,

And with them beside you –

You are never alone