Ran for a Home

I RAN-

When I was a young one,

Didn't even know how to tie my laces - undone.

I was bullied, cast aside and beaten and shorn,

I RAN-

Not knowing where to reborn.

I RAN-

No love, no guide - Just Run

They laughed,

They shoved,

They carved me hollow - 

So I RAN-

With nowhere to follow.

Till I CRASH-

Into the walls they called H-O-M-E

A massacre of faces and I stood alone .

I knew them once - but now they're ash,

Ghost with daggers, mouths that slash.

But I STAYED -

Cause I thought they'd stitch my pain.

I STAYED -

Cause I feared the Storm and rain.

I STAYED -

Cause I thought monsters lived out there,

And God was here and protecting me with care.

FUCK THAT-

I was wrong,

Dead wrong.

That place was just a H-O-U-S-E-

Nothing more.

Never a H-O-M-E 

Not even once.

It ripped me open,

It gutted me raw,

Like a dead flesh in a predator's jaw.

I bled,

I froze,

I broke- 

And they stood there, like grinning ghosts.

MONSTERS. MONSTERS.

They were the monsters!

MONSTERS. MONSTERS.

I was their slaughter.

So, I RAN-

Screaming, burning, tearing free.

I ran to find what  Home  should be.

I ran into the hazardous chase.

A desperate hunt for a saving grace.

I ran from the pit, from the night,

For a place that bleeds but feels so right.

A shelter, a heaven, not stone, not bone,

A place I can finally scream-

This is where I belong 

THIS IS MY FUCKING HOME.