How to ask?

How do I ask my girls directly

I know you’re not coping

Are you screaming inside

Like me?

Are you desperately unhappy

But should give thanks

To all that you’ve got?

How can I expect others to

Reach out to me

When I do not?

Why do we think it’s ok to suffer

Agonies inside

To not share to not burden?

It shouldn’t be such

A stigma these days

There’s light hearted banter

A smile to glaze

The vision you sell to others that see

The superficial

Not turmoil you hide to a T.

I’ve always loved

Hearty, full on

Not protected myself

And now I am worn.

From the men I have treated

Better than me

Why was your value

Higher, significantly?

A smile hides a thousand tears.

My cheeks are cracked, aching

My heart, it bleeds.

I love you my girl friends

Your support unanimously

The moments of peace you offer

Wickedly fun, unashamedly.

Cherished those seconds

Blinding bright

As you heal me with warmth

And increase my light.