Why am i here?

What am i here for?
My soul on fire
Not with the warmth of love
But the flames of suffering

I’ve lost everything
My friends
My spirit 
My will to live

There’s no more i can do
I’ve exhausted myself
Trying to force love
From people who refuse to see me

So enveloped by the flames
Yearning for the smallest drop of water 
Praying to a faucet
Not dry, but closed

God please smile on me
You’re the only one that will
But i can’t tell if you’re not shining
Or if I’m to blinded by pain to see it