Sharks can detect the electrical impulses fish give off when they make movements

Crashed my car in the winter 

Bills started piling up

Walked the hospital December

Praying for some way out

Knocked a tooth loose somewhere

When the firemen carried me up

And knocked my head against the mirror 

Now it's lodged in my ribcage. 

It rotted a cavity away

Smelling like grease and fat and sadness

That yawning maw of dental alienness

With my veins wrapped in festivity 

Sedate me when the pain comes

None of that Tylenol bullshit

Whispers of morphine almost helped

Now I'm on harder stuff

Lick a rubber like it's my father's

And the taste of pressure on my arm

As it clamps the holiday lights off

Before the flick of a lighter and burn of a shot

I'm crushed when it doesn't help. 

The high isn't high when you're already six feet under

No nicotine is gonna fix the unfixable

There's a tooth where it shouldn't be. 

They talked about surgeries.

Slicing away the dead meat from the dead heart

And let the blood push dead cells into a dying brain

No matter the cost, they said. 

Except the cost did matter. 

I crashed my car last December. 

Lost a tooth somehow on the way out. 

Sometimes I think I'm lucky to be driving.

Sometimes I think I'm better off veering into oncoming traffic.

Hopefully someone's body will cradle mine as we die in an inferno of steel and glass.

Were we so lucky.