The Monster In My Head

The sweetest grace

Is the grace I can't erase

I shall die on this shallow tomb

Behold the stars that fade

And something is happening to me

I've never felt like this before

The light is on

Yet the darkness shines

I have created this monster for myself

For I need a friend

Who rubs me inside out

My sexual desires are in need

And I can't turn off this feeling

I have to keep going with it

For the monster in my head is sinking

I shall fall from grace

Do you love me when I'm down,

Or would you rather see me crawl?

I can't beg you for sex

All I can do is display my weakness

For my weakness is you

Wrapped up in guilt and shame

And I am writing this song

That I will never play

You will never get to hear it

For it doesn't matter anyway.