My Deeds

God what do you think?
I have entered the crossroads, I’m not in sync
I best keep it lite; I find it’s the best way to begin.
I have chuckled a time or two, in order to get myself through.
God, I knew all along it was you, so what would you do?
I know what you’re going to tell me.
 I already know what to do, and not to let myself be fear ruled.
Never have I, in the past had doubt. I want to question, I want to, I, I.
His voice intrepid clearly undaunted God spoke, “I do not think in areas that I know.
Therefore, whatever answer you are looking for-
Will not come from me, what I am going to tell you, and it does carry weight.
Everything that has been given is of great significance. All shall reap what they sew.”
Please tell me what I have reaped, wait there is no need
I know my own deeds, however let me no longer tread so lightly
I am scared, I am lost, I am disappointed in me.
I have failed more often than not, and I feel that it matters not
Asking for anything further, doomed to get what I have obviously sought
My behavior when I know that I have a savior 
Brings me to my knees, all I have left is to plead 
I promise I will never again try to lead. 
Worthy, definitely I am not, regret is mostly what I got
Calmly he replied, “Child my child it’s time for you to no longer be lost.
Your regret has you blinded, and you forgot.
Lessons are being taught, you volunteered for this spot.
Without all your failures, and your misdeeds, so many others would have turned away from me.
Forgiven you are, in my grace you shall be, now continue to grow, and continue to lead.”