Why
is it always like this?
Why
did I not see this coming?
Why
am I so stupid?
he doesn't love me...
or does he?
not the way someone should be loved is a better way of saying it I suppose.
he'll
threaten me
and at the same time tell me how much he cares for me
I don't fall for the gaslighting...
but that's not the only manipulation you've been using.
It's like I can't even trust myself anymore.
You think I'm so perfect...
that I shouldn't even have to apologize to you...
but
later
you'll demand I apologize to you right away.
you won't take my no as an answer.
you'll call me names.
you will threaten to hurt me.
you'll even say you don't want me to continue my education.
And I saw it as joking...
but it's not.
So...
I'm being brave, and I'll take back my future now before you ruin it forever.
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NinjaGirl (
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- Comment from author about the poem: I'm still learning what being in a relationship is like... And still learning what it isn't. Here's the product of the realization I just had.
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Comments2
A good write where the struggle for control in a relationship is a good indicator of what it is capable of. One that can not accept you for who you are does not love you. Encouraging change for your betterment by one that loves you is far different than demanding change to meet their desires.
Relationships are a funny little thing. I should hope that it's always about encouraging the other to grow and chase their dreams--even if you both have different ones. Thanks for your thoughts!
You are most welcome NinjaGirl
🥷, this is brave writing. The way you trace manipulation from confusion to recognition feels stark and real…especially that moment when the future comes back into your own hands. This isn’t just a poem, it’s a boundary being drawn. Thank you for sharing it. 🌹🖤🙏🕯️🐦⬛
Thank you! You wouldn't believe it if I told you I've spent over 40 hours a week on this person...that's a full time job! It took a while for this realization, but I've noticed it's affecting my future just like you said. Thanks for your comment!
Totally. I hear you. Don\'t beat yourself up, either. It\'s better to arrive to the realization at any point than to never arrive. So...here's to healthy, even when painful, realizations! And good on you for having enough self-worth to move forward. ❤️🩹 You are most welcome, my friend!
Thank you, we'll see how it goes haha
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