Realization

Why

is it always like this?

Why

did I not see this coming?

Why

am I so stupid?

he doesn't love me...

or does he?

not the way someone should be loved is a better way of saying it I suppose.

he'll

threaten me

and at the same time tell me how much he cares for me

I don't fall for the gaslighting...

but that's not the only manipulation you've been using.

It's like I can't even trust myself anymore.

You think I'm so perfect...

that I shouldn't even have to apologize to you...

but

later

you'll demand I apologize to you right away.

you won't take my no as an answer.

you'll call me names.

you will threaten to hurt me.

you'll even say you don't want me to continue my education.

And I saw it as joking...

but it's not.

So...

I'm being brave, and I'll take back my future now before you ruin it forever.