I Closed My Eyes

I reached out to you
In hopes to get a glimpse of the past
and how things used to be.
I closed my eyes and pretended everything
was alright while I floated in a field of contentment.
Blessed with more than I deserved,
I wished I could live there forever.

I opened my eyes as reality laughed in my face,
reminding me how cruel She could be.
Every pain, hurt, sorrow and sadness,
I had ever felt hit me all at once
stealing my breath from me, holding it for ransom
Silence never screamed so loud as
I fell to my knees and cried.
Tears formed a puddle showing me
The reflection of a broken soul.

I closed my eyes and pretended.