u shouldn't know

recently I met this girl

actually we knew each other for a long time

but now she's different

that's why I say I only met her now

she used to be happy and carefree

now she feels stuck all the time

and nobody can save her

or so she thinks

because she only became like this after somebody made her feel insecure

but really she felt insecure on her own

no matter how many times she looked at the mirror and felt beautiful before

now she felt like all the little things that made her feel beautiful were gone

all because the people that she cared ab now felt so far away from her

like they didn't want to be with her anymore

of course that was all in her head

but she couldn't talk to those people

no matter how hard she tried

because they wouldn't understand

their answers wouldn't be the ones she wanted to hear

and yes, that mattered

because if the answer,

the explanation,

wasn't good enough

then it wouldn't make any difference

she would still feel like shit

and she would still have to hide those feelings again

and again

and again...

(ig it's already obvious the girl is me...)