My Final Goodbye

In the middle night, I toss and turn wide awake

I am missing you so much you never known, in my bloodcurdling scream

While my whole heart slowly bleeds and I can’t even survive the break

Breaking of my bloody core, is this a really bad, terrible dream

But no, I hold your pillow in my shaking weak and feeble arms

Crying over you have gone to the Holy Above, whilst I think it is a nightmare

Being alone in the middle of the night, I quiet lying to myself and then I self harm

Bleeding from my wrists, all covered with my own blood, this is so unfair

The culprit is the gory sharp knife that is just laying there on the floor

I must of cut my own artery open and my blood is spurting out

I am losing a lot of my blood and energy to do some more

I am beginning to beg to God, with frustration my voice starts to shout

Take me to see my Angel in the Holy Land I need to see him again

Everything is getting darker now and my sight is starting to get blurry

Soon I will get rid of all my horrible intertwining feelings and my pain

Nobody knows where I am, now I want to see my Angel in a hurry