Find You

Spend the nights lost in silent screams

an echo rasping into the void

flutter of wings soaring across and over

running from the invisible chaser.

Spend the days pierced by daggered shrieks

salty tears slipping backwards from my eyes into my skin

creeping through my vessels and smearing my soul.

I flee through my dreams

from an invisible chaser

they never catch me

but I feel their hands on my neck

and I tear through windows

tumble through doors

hide away, hide away

keep running and they’ll never find you

I trip through morning

with crimson bleeding through my skin

radio static in my ears

droning and droning 

sharp claps drowning my flailing heart

reaching for a horizon that never comes close

I glide through midnight in wild dreams

colors bursting, people to meet

the friends I never had

the power I can never have

I crack by evening

shards of glass raining down my

body ignore the jagged holes

that let me bleed

if I’m lucky maybe the paper will catch me

I flew past

city-jumping and touching the clouds

you called it ‘nice’

but I can never stop running

invisible or not

I’ll bring you with me

protect you while I scream

and every morning 

afternoon 

evening 

listening to them speak

knowing that only some of you

will ever see me

dreaming of everyone I had left behind

and I see them every night

them, who I’d left behind

the freckles spanning your skin

like stars

and the crooked smile I knew

the curls of their hair

some of you I’ll never know again

I’ll text you if you have time

so every morning I’ll blend with the walls

play my part and braid

my knives into my hair

I’ll do what they want me to do

crumple a dream where I have no power

here I control

myself completely

but never anything else

this is my dream

this was my dream

even at night I’m still the npc

in my own dream

I’ll find you

I’ll find you

every morning whispering

for relief

looking for a key I’ll never reach

every night flying from

something 

looking for something

the power I possess only here

yet I still feel your claws around my neck.