My Rough Sea Of Emotions

I’m just feeling really hysterical and brokenhearted 
I am slowly drowning in the roughness of my own emotions 
The harsh waves have come hurling against me, have just started 
The sea’s waves are high and fast in many motions 

Inside of my heart is a huge mess like an uncontrollable whirling whirlpool 
I am all shaking with the uncertainty of life and my heart is beating so fast 
My anxiety is getting worse and I am going to try and be cool
Please God, kindly help? Give me some support and peace at last 

I can’t stop shaking, my eyes are hurting from welling up with tears 
I have no control over my hands, so I carefully put my full cup down on the floor 
People are talking to me and joking with me and saying I’m not good enough, my mind hears
I am desperately struggling to breathe under water as I try to swim to the shore 

As people are laughing and pointing fingers at me, they are so aggressive 
My sea of emotions is turning into storm of with thunder and lightning 
As I try to breathe and understand. What is going on with this weather? It is depressive 
All of the loud voices and the violent screaming are frightening 

In the face of the storm and I can’t swim without swallowing up my emotional sea
Gushing internally with my own thoughts, I am so tired of the feeling of my own soul 
That is feeling of doubt and despair, just stop making ridiculous fun out of me 
You did your potential damage by running all of your mouths, and where my heart should have been is now a major hole