STUCK!

Ain't confused,
Stuck in a web.
Just when I thought I found
The plot twisted
The fold came off
Found myself drowning,
Which left me devastated.

I know the path
I know I choose is right
Things were supposed to be this way
I wanna let go
Yet the thought 'what - if' lingers

I am not to blame
I ain't blamed 
But 'what - if' it just didnot happen
That voice in my head
For something I didnot cause
For something I can't control
How Stupid?

Yet 'what if' whispered 
Tears rolled my cheeks
Thoughts trespassed,
my quite screams.
I am caged!
Chest tightened,
dugged in my trembling body.
I fainted, or so I thought!
Staring up at the ceiling blank, again