My favourite heartache

Once again, I sit here shedding tears,

wondering what we have become,

But I can do nothing except watch in despair,

I think I finally did succumb.

You forgot to say goodbye and broken my heart in a million pieces,

I didn't have the courage to ask you why,

I truly thought you'd stay but I was so oblivious.

I think this is the end of us,

We can no longer be saved,

I would know, I was the sole witness,

I gave you my blood, sweat and tears , yet I failed.

February will come along and you will call on my birthday,

And I will have to pretend nothing is wrong,

You won't even notice it , to my dismay,

You drained me of my courage; I am not longer strong.

I will never be able to look at September the same,

Or the colour midnight blue,

Or anything even close to your name,

Or that one character who completely resembles you.

Last night, I decided not to contact you unless you do it first,

It is hard and makes my heart ache,

But I am tired if being repeatedly unheard,

I don't want to do it, but this is the end I'm afraid.

It breaks my heart,

Especially because you can be so sweet of you choose to be,

I don't want to let go but I can't wait any longer in this decaying graveyard,

I love you, I'm sorry.