It No Longer Feels Like Home Poem, by not

I dont feel as I belong anymore

I'm a stranger to my own reality

And the dreams I've had seem wasted

Maybe they didnt mean a thing

I look at my blurred reflection

I cant pinpoint my identity

And these walls that felt so warm

They dont really do much for me

A numbness grows inside, as I

Look at memories on my phone

Where once I felt so much joy

Now no longer feels like home

Could it be just a passing phase?

Maybe a temporary low

Well, how fleeting is it

When it is all I have ever known?

When was the last I've felt at peace?

Its been so long, I cant recall

Nothing seemed to work

No, nothing at all

Seconds pass on by, as I

Feel increasingly more alone

Inside these walls in isolation

It no longer feels like home

Author: not_defined ( Online)
Published: March 1st, 2026 20:45
Comment from author about the poem: Can I be honest with yall? Truthfully, I feel as if I have ran my course in life. Isnt that weird to say? I dont know, lads. Im just tired, yknow? Like very, very tired. I dont know if I even the strength anymore. Everything is changing, and it isnt for the better, it seems. I dont have much to show for anything. The times Ive tried to break from my mold, to do something for myself, I only ever return back to my old routine out of fear for change. Back to my old habits and to my old, mundane, organized life. Ive only ever did this to myself, I suppose. And now, I have no other options. Its all gone. I guess Im locked in now. I dont know. Im just very tired, lads. Im tired of the mundane. Im tired of the dependance. Im tired of being tired. I just want an out, though I dont know if I have the strength or will. Ironically enough, Im too tired for that aswell. Im just tired. I dont know when I lost my light, or when everything just lost its charm, but it mustve happened recently. Or maybe it has just been there all along, and I finally had no other excuse or distraction to keep me from accepting that fact. I dont know. A part of me wants to believe there is a light at the end of this tunnel, that I will find closure eventually, and maybe at one point I did. But I dont feel that anymore. Im just here, floating in my internal abstract, wondering where it all went. I just want to feel something again, god damn I feel so guilty about how I feel now. I know I shouldnt, I know Im just hard on myself, but damnit I just wish I didnt feel this way. I tried, lads. I really did try. I had it under control at one point in my life, but somewhere along the lines I lost my grip and I never managed to get a hold again. I really dont want to feel this way anymore, but it just feels so overwhelming, and Im just so tired. I just want an out. I just want an out. Im just too tired of it all.
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It No Longer Feels Like Home

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