How guilt feels

If i could just sink in to my bed,

It would have been amazing

If i only woke up after a week,

My guilt could have been gone

When guilt washes over me

Hopes run away

But i still hold on to hope even when i know there is nothing

I wanted to start over, change but now i dont want to repeat this.

Looking at the ceiling i see guilt written all over it

I want to die but also wanna live and here i  am holding on to hopes.