Hell of a Mind

Hell of a Mind

Everytime you do something

You expect something outta me

What if I really just don't care about you, see

What if I do but you don't see what I do. 

You don't do it too and thats what kills what's left inside o' me. 

The side of me that cares if you're hurting but not if you're not. 

The side of me that'd do anything except untie a knot. 

The side of me that makes you soar

The side of you that makes me sore. 

The side of us I had once saw

And gave up on all your warmth. 

The side that slid down the slope and off a cliff away from help

Away from both sides yet still feel yours. 

You carved a pain into the cliffface

For me to feel for the rest of my days

For me to fill the rest of my pain

To age badly with cracks and stains. 

All from one singular angel. 

For a demon is an angel that broke inside me. 

I don't blame you, I blame me for staying. 

I don't blame me, I blame you for making

My life hell before I had got the chance to make a change. 

But now I'm gone I am so done 

And this thing I saw so long ago 

Which I gave up so long ago 

But never truly forgot so long ago

Is so long ago

So long

Please go. 

I'll never forget but I am hoping something inside me will grow. 

For an eternity I've never lived.

For an eternity I shall live slow. 

For the devil inside me is the angel of you that had burnt my insides and built them anew

It is not you. 

It is me that keeps fueling the blaze in my maze of a mind

In my heart I had screwed with hope that hope I will soon find. 

In my Hell of a mind