I'm sorry

I’m sorry

for every word I haven’t kept.

I’m sorry

for all the times I lied.

I’m sorry

for every mistake I’ve ever made,

for every fake smile I stuffed into your face,

and every word I ever said

that hurt you in a way

you couldn’t explain.

I’m sorry

that you thought about what I said.

I’m sorry

my name kept echoing in your head.

I’m sorry I couldn’t fulfill

what you expected from me.

I’m sorry I changed in a way

that you now hate who I am,

and I won’t blame you

because I hate it too.

I hate seeing you in pain,

especially when it’s me

who caused it all.

Sometimes I wish

you would see behind

those hypnotizing words

that fall out of my mouth,

and from every tear I’ve cried,

the pain that I hide

just to see your shining smile.

The smile that made my day,

the one that washed

the emptiness away.

I’m sorry

for every time I’ve hurt you,

physically or mentally,

whether by words

with their ruthless power,

or every drop of blood

that I’ve wiped away.

Im sorry, Cindy

I’m sorry to me.