Hello, goodbye, do I know you?

Hello, goodbye, do I know you?:

Hello, younger me,

I know you’ll never read this, in fact you won’t be able to, but I know that you probably wouldn’t be proud of me if you could. 

and I’d understand that, I became everything that we promised we’d never be. I promised that I’d never be mean, and I was, I promised that I’d stay friends forever, and I didn’t, I promised I wouldn’t fail my dreams and I did. 

I always said that I wouldn’t scream at the top of my lungs knowing no one would hear me, but I just couldn’t help it considering how loud the pain got and how much the noise hurt.

But my head isn’t on tight enough and my heart is beating well enough, people say everything about me is wrong and maybe they’re right, 

but I won’t admit that.  

I know we had such an imagination, and we still do, I spend my days writing imaginary letters and poems that I know nobody would ever read, not that I expect them to. 

and I’m sorry I failed you, but I promise I’ll try again, even if the promises don’t always work out.

i didn’t want to kill and bury you the way I did, but it was the only option I had of change. 

goodbye, younger me,

do I know you?

cause I know for certain that you don’t know me. 

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