Stream of consciousness Part 2

I had the nagging fear

That my girlfriend would get raped

Pool of death

Non-existence

And visions by their hate

Loops of bad thoughts

Is not the way I should think

Desperate for safety

Splashing water from the sink

In my state I was trapped

But I knew Christ has the win

I want to touch her with my holy heart

That's free of sin

Born into a family that

I never sensed was human

Brain dead, sickly, and quite tricky

Starved of life and lumin

I recalled that scene from Spiderman

Gwen dying in his arms

When I saw myself crying the same

Wife dead; I felt alarmed

I want to believe it's genuine 

But everything is fake

I will win

I'll get it pinned

No matter what it takes