Whos Going to Love You?

 Isn't it lovely when you love someone
You give it your all just for that person
Just to be used and forgotten about, cuz you where there?
You put in all your strength even when your drained
But what was it for?

 Why did you do it?
For whom appreciated it?|
No one!
No one at all!
And that's where...
                                          You...
                                                           Just...
                                                                                Disappear...

Is he worth waiting? Worth crying over? Worth hating?
And why you may ask yourself. Why continue loving?
Because you never had that love the way you do now...
!But its toxic!
!But is also unsafe!
And you don't care because... Who's going to love you?

You sit up knowing he hates you, but hoping he'd text
And yet your still wanting him back... Stupid...
                                                                                     Stupid...
      Stupid girl NO ONE will want your broken heart, soul, YOU!     Stupid...
You just sit up in your room and cry... Why? Because no one bothered
No one cared to check in too. So whos going to love you?
Certainly not him... You were a prop... A game. Nothing but shame

Smile! Because you must maintain So...
Whos going to love you?
No one does, and no one will

No one will see you, no one will keep you
Because you are unwanted, loud, annoying, ugly, nothing
People play you
To break you

Liar...
                      Cheater....
                                                                        CHEATER....                  You rise
                                                          Liar! Liar! Liar! LIAR!                       then you
                                                                                                                 fall...
And who was it for? Nothing. Nothing at all
So...
Whos going to love you?

But whos going to for you? Not your body or looks.. You!
And then yet again who are you? Lost in nothing...
Nothing that use to be happy, alive, mentally ok, social...
Use to be human

The girl you once knew changed. Changed for him.
So that she would have what was pain before
Love
And yet again
what was that?

The abuse... Being smacked, thrown, punched... Left... Forgotten...
Who'd want that weighing them down?
Nobody wants a partner who has trust issues....
Panic attacks, dark moments, insecurities, needing reassurance that you love her...
That you want her
That you wont leave her
That you want to help her
That's all you needed from him... Reassurance

But why does it matter?
Didn't matter to him... You didn't
So someone
Tell
Me
Whos going to love you 

Who will when you don't love yourself?
So please
Someone explain to me
Why someone like you, fell in love with me...

So please...
Whos going to love you?