Everything

All you heard when I talked was that I like women

All you heard when I talked was I will not carry your grand children

You never heard the part about when I was a kid you made me keep quiet about the things people did

You didn’t protect me from members of family

But you protected me from strangers who were nice to me

You said family wouldn’t hurt me we are the same blood

But looking back family hurt me more than you know

Family open some wounds that have never healed

And up to this day it hurts me still

Family made an 8 year old turn into a women for the pleasure of their fun

Family made me hide my pain all in one to the point I said do I trust men

I know you don’t know a lot mama

Because we never established a space for talks mama

But he hurt me bad mama

From 7-10 that was hard mama

So the choices I made after that was bad mama

But you never saw the changes in my mood

The way I grabbed my thighs

The way I spent so much time outside and was scared to come home

So if the same thing happened outside who do I confined in

Because is the same thing happening inside here

So I learnt to let it go

I learnt to let it be a part of my day

With all the burns all the pain

I went through i grew

So every time I call home and I ask were my sisters are

Is because I hope they are not going through what I did

A part of me is still broken I can’t seem to fix it

So please protect them so they are not fragile and broken like me

Protect these sweet little girls who smiles even they don’t have much

Who make me feel like I worth more than that

Please protect these two girls even if you never did for me

(please)