Anguish

I feel the anguish that I know from a couple of times before

Nowhere to the other side do I see an open door

I cannot shut the thoughts out that I know will hurt my mind

Not here, there, or anywhere do I see rest to find 

Nowhere do I see an open door to get to the other side

Although in my mind exists no bit of pride

Now what is this door I mention the curious may want to ask?

It’s the door from death to life, my friend, which to discover is my task

The task set before me ends inevitably at the pearly gates

To help the needy, inspire the discouraged, to tell them it's not too late

Nowhere I go, nowhere I turn will I find an escape from pain

In this broken world sometimes it feels like life’s just a random, cruel game

But even when my mind reels with delirium beyond the control

A faint wonder of passions hidden keeps whispering to my soul

Precious memories and life lessons motivate my very being

To be free of confusion, pain, and doubt 

To go from blind to seeing