Save me

I miss you today more then yesterday thoughts of you consume my mind replaying every second of our time.i close my eyes I can feel your lips on mine your  arms around me.i need you to hold me.if the monster that lives  inside of  you could just sleep.i need the man I know you can be so loving so sweet. It's been a while now I wounder about you.years of toxic  love you have bounded me to you a spell so hard to break  but I try hard everyday. Do you realize  what you have done to me.its not far I'm in constant  pain  you changed my life forever I need to find the person I use to be it's a struggle  I'm still on edge judging  myself as you did feeling as though your standing over me watching my every move.i wait for the rage I have to remember  you are not here.But you are here inside my head.and I fear you will always be.God please save me.