distance

i'm sixteen but it wasn't until last night when i was alone. that i realized i could no longer call your phone. i could no longer make an excuse to hear your voice but i guess growing up isn't really a choice. still i can't sit in your passenger seat driving to taco bell at 3am for something to eat. still i can't take your phone from your hands and watch the way you sorta smile while claiming "i can't" still i can't hear you sing when i play a song you love watching the way your eyes light up attempting a note that you can quite reach, i don't think you ever saw the way i'd look at you and beam. now i can meet you at some spot with all our friends. but i will never have those moments of just me and you again. i know pining is pointless. i've done two years of this. but i keep wondering... are you gonna miss it?