End

I remember how you would

Surprise me so beautifully that I wouldn’t believe that its real

You would be up all night

Making me gifts

Travelling all night

For me, for us

That love, That look, Those eyes

Where did they go?

And I got lost looking for you

Abandoning myself soo deeply

That I only feel it now

Now after I have sent you away

Now that I no longer need to fix

I get to grieve

Even though you wanted to fix it

I couldn’t hold

Oh How you would always get me

Something small from a small shop

Out of no reason

Out of pure belonging

Where did you go for years now?

That I had to kill the girl

Who would be happy to the wait

Another decade

All those little things

All those true smiles

Where did they go?

When I needed them to remember

All I could be

All I am left with

Is a high bar that you set

No one matches up to that

Not even you, anymore

You changed

I stayed

I changed

I left

It is a shame to know 

How real things, end too.

-Al