I tried

I tried to be the best that I can ,
I keep reliving the trauma from one man ,
I can’t get it out of my head , no matter how hard I try ,
Sometimes it’s so overwhelming I just sit down and cry ,
To tired to heal so I let it break me,
I tried to walk in the light , I tried to see,
I know I’m not alone no matter where I am ,
What gave me the strength is what my daughter gave to me, a little white RAM ,
Free of blemish to sacrifice to our lord ,
So I ran away from him and I found my reward,
My riches isn’t here but in another place,
I tried to give up - but I seen Christs face ,
He led me through Hell to get me here ,
I will press forward regardless of my overwhelming fear,
A fear that he’ll come back and I’ll once again be in chains,
I must never look back and remember what I gained,
I found a love that will never end,
I can hear my name whispered carried with the wind ,
A kiss of an angel reminds me of my journey,
Always moving forward and always learning

So maybe the question is,
'where do we go from here'.
Do we continue to try,
and weather the storm?
Do we act as though,
this relationship is the norm?
What is best for you and me,
when not only can,
I not hear your voice,
but your face I cannot see.
Do we go our separate ways,
into the cold swarm,
or do we continue to hold eachother,
and keep eachother warm?
The Lord should always come first.
Nothing should get in the way of that.
The sacrifices are great,
and sometimes I don't even know,
where the sacrifices are at.
(Sigh) But it will all be worth it,
if this is as bad as it gets.
Most of the time,
I honestly believe it,
and yeah...
Sometimes I'm just being an optimist.

Love your enemies
I heard him say
But that could be for
Another day.

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"Tis been said
Obstacles are sent to test us.
So, we must forge ahead,
Regardless.
Keats said :
"Hope springs eternal in the human breast."
Thus, we must follow hope.
(SR. 30.5.2026)
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No matter what
Trying isnt enough
I try and try and try
But no one can see past it
I want to sit and cry and let it all out
But not even a sob or a little cry will escape
I try my best and it goes to waste
I dont know what to do but it wont change