How do I explain them?🥀

How do I explain them? 

I am tired of screaming with no voice.

Tired of these noise 

surrounding me, inside me.

How do I explain them? 

 I remember only haunting moments,

I oversee the blissful moments.

How do I explain them?

I love them,

But I don't want to be with them.

How do I explain them? 

This place haunts me, reminds me,

What I don't want to recall.

How do I explain them? 

I don't want to them to hold my hands and help me walk,

I want to experience and learn to walk alone.

How do I explain them? 

It's neither anger nor attitude,

It's weight of these words, 

I feel over-burdened with...

How do I explain them? 

I am lost in my own thoughts and

Not able to find the small blissful girl I was.

How do I explain them? 

The small girl in me,

Who wants to make her parents proud,

Is now trapped to survive this thunder.

Tell me can I tell them?

Do they have time?

Will they make time for me,

in their chaotic life?

Will

they listen?

And not misunderstand...