Loneliness

Loneliness seems to follow me like a shadow,

It sits beside me as I stare at the ceiling,

We share a cup of tea and self doubt,

In my heart it's now creeping.

Loneliness is like an old friend now,

It whispers sweet nothings into my ear,

It sows the seeds of poison into my mind,

And I sit there paralysed,

A twisted comfort in it I find .

We go way back ; my loneliness and I,

The only thing constant in my life,

It knows me since I was ten,

It kills me slowly; like a honey covered knife.

Loneliness has been with me every time I wanted it all to end,

It seems to be dragging me down,

One day at a time,

It's a vast ocean in which I drown.

It even manages to find me when I'm among a crowd ,

And slowly, everything else fades away,

The sounds become background noise,

And I barely register what people next to me say.

Loneliness has a grip like a vice , 

You won't notice it at first bcs it feels too comforting, too familiar to leave,

The poison will spread through you slowly, 

Like an incurable disease.

Tiredness settles deep in my bones,

It's all I can feel 

It weighs me down,

Living has started to feel like an ordeal.