No one should go through hell twice

They say that those who leave like this
may not find heaven.
That maybe on the other side
there is judgment.
closed doors.
and fire.

And I can’t stop thinking
about everything we didn’t see.

About you.

About the nights you were still here
with no strength left to stay.
About the days you smiled
as if nothing inside you was breaking.
About the moments you said “I’m fine”
when it wasn’t true,
but it was the only way to keep going.

There are pains
that make no sound.
There are wounds
that cannot be seen.
There are wars
with no witnesses.

And you fought.

You fought when no one was watching.
When the world stayed normal
and yours was falling apart.
When your body felt heavier than your soul
and still you stayed.
when even breathing
felt like effort.

They say giving up is easy.

But no one was inside your head.
No one heard what you said in silence.
No one felt that old exhaustion
of not being able to go on
even one more day.

And now that you are no longer here
there are words that come too late.
judgments.
opinions.
certainties that understand nothing.

But I can’t accept it.

I can’t accept the idea
that someone who lived in darkness
has to continue in another darkness.

I can’t accept
that someone who drowned in life
has to drown after it.

I can’t accept
that the same pain
repeats itself.

Because if anything exists after,
I want to believe it doesn’t look like punishment.

I want to believe someone truly saw you.
Not the version you showed.
not the one that survived.
but the one who was tired of everything.

That someone understood
every tear you never said.
every night you endured.
every thought that broke you
without anyone noticing.

And that, for once,
you didn’t have to explain yourself.

Just rest.

Just be understood.

Just stop fighting.

Because there are people
who don’t leave because they want to.
They leave because the pain
becomes too big for them.

Because living was already
a battle with no rest.

And if that is true,
then it cannot be true
that another hell awaits them.

It shouldn’t.

It wouldn’t make sense.

No one should go through hell twice.
not here.
not after.
never.