D-Day

D-day is approaching

Not the one you thought of

Divorce Day

Like an anniversary, of sorts

When I think about it

My gut, it turns and spins

A pit opens up and there are diamonds

Waaaay down there, where they used to sparkle

We sat across from each other

I looked up and our eyes locked

I could see the sadness in her eyes

There is love there

Love that cannot be buried

A lot of it…if you can imagine a soccer stadium

Full of our love

That’s how much there is

But we still couldn’t make it work

My chest tightened again and my stomach pit opened

It grew and grew…a black hole in reverse

Spitting out all my feelings and emotions

Fogging my vision and my words

My lawyer on the left of me

She patted my shoulder for some solace

But it didn’t work…I couldn’t contain it anymore

My tears burst out

I hyperventilated and I barfed

I tried to get a hold of myself, but

Control was lost

I don’t remember much of the Day

But I signed something

And I remember hugs

And cries

But the in between bits, they are misty

I woke the next day

Next to the blackened diamonds

Waaay down there

Divorced