I wish

I wish
I didn't have feelings
They burn me deep
I fall so easy

I wish
She loved me
Like I love her
But she doesn’t

I’m just a tool

I wish
They would see the love I have
The flowers I've planted
The nights I've stayed up fixing what's broken
The years I've given quietly

I wish
I didn't have feelings
My toe is broken

I wish I were mold
Black inside and dead to worries
Not caring, just doing
Darken the world instead of lighten

Wouldn't that be easier?

I wish
I didn't hurt
My bones don't like it
My skin tries to repel it

I wish
I wasn't tired
I'm so tired of being hurt