Her gentle presence

God, it was like heaven when she spoke to me with kindness!

I was filled with fear and bad thoughts always

Rarely did I find this

Her holy presence next to me

Gave me a moment’s peace

She didn’t see me as a monster

No wrong place to cease

He asked “What’s different about her?”

I felt warm inside when she laughed

For once I was not neglected

For once attention lasts

Didn’t tell her any secrets

But at least she loved to see me

I believed that if I told her the truth

She would no more receive me

And I told them the truth

But of course no one believed me

Here I am with lightning thoughts

“I’m scared she’ll never love me.”

To be real is intimidating

Cause I’m not protected from

What’s ugly

Cause when I had no power

I suffered without hits

But once I got the power

Then they tore me into bits

But no, I won’t be moved

It isn’t really different

My heart just twists in pain

When it was touched; excess indifference