Lost in Search of a Saved Child

O youth! O passion for living, embrace
me once again!

Open the gates of freedom so I can cross over and bathe in thy lovely streams of innocence.

I carry upon my being the filth
and deception of adulthood. As my
years have grown, my happiness, strength
and lust for life have faded! 

I no longer ask that most dreadful question "Why?" and have accepted all Worldly lies as truth.

Survival is now the game I play. It's
a new form of hide and seek. I'll try
to get away with as much as possible
while you prove I did something wrong!

HA! Lies are now my alibis and truth
is but treason to my living soul! 

I dare not say what's on my mind, for fear that the guardians of manipulation and ignorance will beat me to a pulp until my desire to exist became null!

I no longer live a REAL life! 

I admit now that reality is but a two-way mirror that I am unaware of! 

Maybe one day that mirror will be broken and I'll become whole again. 

Who knows? 

I can only pray for such a Heavenly illusion!