Am i not your child too?

i've always craved parents affection
or affection of any sort
but maybe im no one's child?
or maybe im someone...
on whom no one can dot?

ive always craved simple conversations 
in which we talk
about everything and nothing
all at once

maybe im unlovable ?
or maybe everyone is unaware
that yes some people are little too
and deserving of love
but im little too
im a child too

what sin could i have done?
what lie could i have uttered? 
that was so big
to lose any affectionate touch
or fond words
delivered with care

am i nobody's child?
am i nobody daughter?
am i nobody to noone?
am i undeserving of simple
moments of laughter?

for years and years
i've chased their cheers
trying to be 
what im expected to be
yet for whom am i
trying this hard for?

what am i?
to you and to them?
whats my purpose?
who am i?                                
                                                            ~Nazia zahra