Numb

For the majority of people feeling normal means feeling

Happy or

Peaceful or

Calm or 

Content

Yet for some reason my normal is

Numb

It feels like TV static in my mind

The sound crickets 

Playing where emotion should be

To be emotionless is to be normal

For me

Yet not for others

If I were to be habitually happy

I would riddled unable to truly appreciate 

Moments of pure joy

If I was permanently at peace

I would lack the muse I write for

In moments of great displeasure

If I was continually content

Or continuously calm

I would be incapable of growing in my discomfort

The ability to return to a stat of numbness,

Though occasionally exhausting or mildly melancholic,

Has been of great benefit when trying to keep a level head

I’ve learned to accept my numbness,

No matter how unnatural it might be to some,

With open arms.

Because sometimes

To remove the heavy chains of emotion,

Is to be free.