For You

Soon you’ll be gone…

And I know I’ll cry…

Thank you for all the chances you gave me to say good-bye…

Memories of…

A rounded kitchen table with edges so worn.

Tattered window curtains you never knew were torn…

That odd, patterned chair where you held him wondering if he would die…

Paneling so dark, you could barely see…

Misty on the chair waiting and ever so spry…

So many pets, all the work and at their worst, you smiled then cried…

The whiff of your Joy before I night out…

The phone in a drawer, under your sweater so you might nap…

Your stare of despair when you did not know I was there…

What she did too you, later I became aware…

Why did I rock so much, you said it was fear…

Later I learned you were right, but I didn’t care…

Pictures of you and I at the same age…we were twins…

On stage, there in the back I saw you, and I knew I would win…

The dark years and the lies that hurt you so…

Yet if you knew the truth, you’d make me go…

So, I did for a while, until the call…please come home, he needs to see your smile…

A Thursday in October, you made the call…he left us…I already knew…the one I became to look like…now so small…

Then a life began again…lost years of blissful sin…

You worried and you paced as I lied to your face…

What was forever buried…needed me daily…

Yet as a part of you, I could never be fully a part of them, even if I did, you knew my heart was still of a kid…

She came, they came, and what was now pure and clean, brought me to what was serene…

A different path, you and I know, my redemption and yours, becoming aware, your glorious plan all along…

One hundred years in a minute …

One thousand meals you will never finish…

One million times my heart would twitch when I thought of you, your message to me…I love you…

Can doors close on a life or forever remain opened...and expose the beauty of love within a heart?

A heart that mended mine and made me whole…

Of course it can…

For you often said. You'll always know my love, for... “You’re my son.”