Dead Right Now

Two thousand eighteen, sleeping on a broken spring,
No one answered when I pulled the string.
Counting pennies just to buy a little peace,
Waiting for the winter of my mind to cease.
They called me crazy, told me put the dream away,
Now they're calling just to ask about my day.

I remember when the room was completely cold,
Before the story of my life was bought and sold.
You stayed silent when I needed you to speak,
Now you’re loud because my numbers hit a peak.

So I treat you like a ghost in the hallway,
You don't get to walk with me the whole way.
You were absent when the sky was falling down,
Do not look for me now that I wear the crown.
Yeah, you're dead to the memory,
Dead to the melody,
Dead right now.

Mama had her demons, daddy had his pride,
Left me in the middle with nowhere to hide.
Blood runs thick until the money runs clear,
Funny how the distance makes them all appear.
They want a piece of what they never helped to build,
Want a glass from the well that I finally filled.

So I treat you like a ghost in the hallway,
You don't get to walk with me the whole way.
You were absent when the sky was falling down,
Do not look for me now that I wear the crown.
Yeah, you're dead to the memory,
Dead to the melody,
Dead right now.

Static on the receiver.
I no longer believe her.
Keep the line busy.
Keep the past far behind me.
Dead right now.