ᴛʜᴇ ꜱʜᴀᴅᴏᴡ

ᴍᴏᴏɴ

I write for I can't stop feeling
I'm ripping words to form a sentence
Sentences to form a poem or such
I'm trying to understand

 

Trying to find the core of the matter
Trying to find whats wrong
Trying to take the bullet out
So that it may heal the wound

 

The clock ticks beside me 
And with each second that passes
I exist with this parasite in me;
I exist without living.

 

A shadow sits beside me, mocking my attempt
I know not whether It is a beast or man
Whether It is real or just in my head
And It laughs for I may never find out

 

I study the shadow, but I don't understand what i see
It's my fears and ambition, Its every dream that'll never be
It's my guilt and pride, It's what is expected of me
It's all I want to be and all I fear I might become

 

It's watching me with pleasure while I struggle to understand
It won't leave me for a second, It wont leave me alone
For the shadow is no beast, the shadow is no man
The shadow is me.

 

It's watching me as I realise
And a smile spreads across its face
For I know I can't get rid of myself,
For I know I can't escape

 

It can't become me, I think and i hope.
I hope if its water, I'm oil
I hope if its sand, im the beach
I hope if its the sun, I'm the moon
I wish it wasn't ME

 

I see it in the mirror,
I hear it when I speak,
And I can't cut out it,
I can't cut me.

 

I can only watch It settle deeper and deeper
In the core of my belief,
In the core of my spirit,
In the core of my psyche.

 

But I can't escape.
How can I escape me?

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Comments3

  • sorenbarrett

    A great poem of how one can never escape who they are. Nicely composed with feeling. Well written

  • Fränz Müller

    We cannot escape who we are but we can make the decision to become someone else entirely 😁

  • Tristan Robert Lange

    What a raw and haunting piece, Sylva. You move through the desperate need to understand an inner darkness, only to confront the terror that it cannot simply be removed...intimate, relentless, and painfully real. One hell of a poem, my friend. 🌹🖤🙏🕯️🐦‍⬛



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