I Prayed

You came into my life when I promised myself I was done,

But my heart was trying its best to convince me that you were the one.

My mind was telling me that this was going to be like the events from my past,

That the feelings weren't real, and that they wouldn't last.

I tried so hard to let it go,

But there was still that part of that was hoping your feelings were going to grow.

I accepted my fate, and realized that nothing was going to change,

But accepting those feelings still felt strange.

There would always be that part of me that wondered what would happen if I kept trying,

But the constant disappointment left me feeling broken and crying.

Just as I accepted the harsh reality,

It was as if an angel appeared in front of me.

With a prayer that made me see everything in a different light,

And finally gave me a little bit of peace at night.

I prayed that you would stay in my life if it was meant to be,

And that I would keep my faith in you if you were truly made to be with me.

I prayed that the desire to have you would be removed from my heart,

If you were never my person from the start.

Just when I said that, I was contemplating what to do,

And I looked outside of my door, and there I saw you.

In the exact moment when I needed someone to appear,

You were around the corner, and it removed all of my fears. 

I pray that this isn't like the times before,

And that this time, there actually is something more.

I have my faith in God, and I know he will answer my prayers,

Because if it wasn't you, when I turned around, you wouldn't have been there.

Right after I asked for you to be removed if I needed to let go,

Because I do believe he is telling me what my heart has always known.