My mind won't let me rest

My mind turns silence into something I should fear.

I replay every word until it sounds like a warning.

I search for hidden meanings in the smallest things.

Even happiness feels temporary when I think too much.

I can’t remember the last time my head was quiet.

I make disasters out of moments that never happened.

I convince myself everyone I love is slowly leaving.

One unanswered message becomes proof that I’m too much.

One change in someone’s voice can ruin my entire night.

I know it’s irrational, but knowing doesn’t make it stop.

I’m exhausted from fighting wars nobody else can see.

I want to trust people, but my brain keeps screaming don’t.

I want to enjoy the moment, but I’m already mourning its ending.

I overthink until every good thing feels poisoned by possibility.

And sometimes I hate my own mind for making living feel this fucking difficult.