Fire within

I’ve built several lives brick by brick 

Spent many hours feeding a self destructive tick. 

There is an ever lit fire within 

lying dormant, waiting to burn and 

I LOVE THE HEAT. 

For chaos it craves, obliteration it brings. 
When time is perfectly wrong and stars misaligned

This force, it compels and I nearly go blind. 
But I choose to see, fully aware that tomorrow the despair awaits me. 

That is no concern, for tonight I truly have no cares. 

My ears crave the loudest bangs. 
My hands miss being battered. 
My eyes fill with tears and the glass, it must be shattered. 

Tonight I dance in the fire and sing my screams 

Brick by brick I tear it all down, ripped seam from seam. 

The sun rises and reason sets back in

my house in shambles

Ive done it again.

This is a story still being written, I do not know how it will end. There is no fire left but the embers, they still burn within.