Time and Space

I watched you create distance

Between our present and the future

we once imagined for ourselves.

Just two dumb kids, who thought

loving each other is enough

to break through space and time.

How naive and wonderful.

I loved you even though I didn’t know

the meaning of the word or how to show

the love I had. That endless pit.

I’m sorry, my dear, for acting like I didn’t care.

I’m sorry, my love, for making you scared of demons that haunt me

and break through my walls.

I’m sorry, sweetie, for making everything worse.

I’m sorry, honey, for everything I’ve done.

I’m sorry, lovely, for thinking I was the one.

You chose yourself and that’s okay.

You chose another and that makes me say

the things I’m terrified of saying out loud even to God.

I watched you create distance and that’s okay,

but I’ve yet to realize my hands were the ones

who brought you through Hell

and helped you lift the anchor and move away.

Because fighting my demons left me hollow

Because fighting my thoughts brought too much sorrow.

Our story is one of many who will be lost in winds

That carry whispers over seas.

Our story is one of many who will be lost in time

And I’m sorry, honey, but I’ll always think you were the one

And pray that waves will grant me just another glimpse

Another glimpse of voice

that meant so much and brought me back to earth.

Now just a ghost that keeps my demons company.