Surgery

Surgery, this sugery im having i know I know its for the best. It takes the risk of breast cancer down for me. For me for I having NF1 puts me at risk for breast cancer. Yes, I know I can take estrogen blockers to help lower my risk, but then I have a risk for uterus cancer and I already have some problems in that department for this is why I am choosing surgery over having to take medications and or putting me at more risk. 

With this sugery, with me being at a high risk and with having tumors (nf1) there is a chance that they'd have to take the nipples  too. Im not sure how to feel you see. I am Trans female  to male well, working on it and yes top sugery was a thought but with that ill still be at risk for breast cancer. So full sugery of the breast and I was thinking hmm them gone and just the nipples dont seem so bad. But now just the thought that the nipples might have to go to is a hard pill to swallow.  

Im comfortable to a digree in the body I was born into but also to a digree I wasn't always the happiest  with the body I was given Im happy I was able to bare a child more then greatful ive jist accepted  that this is it. But its hard to be in a body that you just see differently when looking in a mirror although its been a while since ive been able to fully look in a mirror without wanting to shatter it, but I just avoid  it to that digree I look long enough for a second or two but no more and sonn it'll get harder to look at this body and im not sure if im ready although I know it'll have to be soon soon for this sugery.