It’s an insufferable experience
When I’m sent into derealization
My thoughts, words, and ideas
Think and feel like an inherent flaw
Source and creation
Disjointed mind
Disjointed mind
Everything makes sense
But it doesn’t soften or make bearable
The feeling of complete worthlessness
His judgemental reaction
And Sarah said that it was weird
Weird! Weird! Weird! Feared! Weird!
“She” “She” “She” “She” “She”
Hallucinating a girlfriend
Distorting reality in the eyes of my audience!
I operate inside a fictional delusion
A desperate man can’t handle reality!
What an embarrassment!
Letting rotten puss spew out of me
To those who don’t deserve my thoughts
Shameful mental defects that refuse to relent
Nonsensical phrases and my nonsensical shows get praises!
Random brain noise that doesn’t match
What’s inside of me
There’s biology and theology
And a mind that doesn’t think
It all makes sense but what I can’t stand
Is the feeling in my sink
In order to be free of this
Healing is the key
Then I won’t feel broken anymore
And I can understand it all with peace
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Author:
Lewis O’Carroll (Pseudonym) (
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- Comment from author about the poem: An unfiltered look into the state of fight-or-flight, derealization, and the heavy shame of mental disconnect. Written in a fast-moving, fragmented style, the poem externalizes internal chaos while reaching toward ultimate healing. It captures the sense of the experience feeling so intense it feels like truth.
- Category: Reflection
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Comments1
This must be a very unsettling feeling and confusing thoughts as well. Nicely explained in verse well done my friend
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