Everywhere You Aren't

Place your arms around my waist,

Hold me close to you,

Embrace.

The feeling of your lips on mine,

Bittersweet bliss,

Addiction.

Look me in the eyes,

With whatever ego you have left,

Manipulate.

Whisper sweet nothings in my ear,

You call it fate but its just an escape.

Told me you love me,

But you lie so well,

The truth is nowhere in sight.

When I look at you,

There is a lack of warmth in your eyes,

Only lust.

Did I ever love you or was it just a fight?

Struggling to be understood,

Was it even worth it?

Look beyond your narrow thoughts,

You'll find me there,

Everywhere you aren't.

Far away from me is where you belong,

As far away I was from your kindness,

Hard to reach.

This distance grew in silence,

All those years began to feel like a past life,

Rebirth.

To think I would betray myself,

Reopen my wounds for you?

Insanity.

No desire to see your face,

Or be held in the same suffocating embrace,

Disillusioned.

-JJ