Belief

If you asked me what I believe

I don’t know what I would say

I believe in God

And the universe and chance

I believe in music and evil

I believe in people

And then, I don’t

Because why would the stars align against me

And God let me feel this way

Why does every song speak to me

And tell me I’m not enough

Why do I have no one

I’m not alone, not really

Every day I’m surrounded by people

Strangers 

Almost friends

People I once begged to love me

And ones I refuse to accept do

I feel guilty being so sad

Wanting to leave

Wanting to stay

Reaching out

Reaching rock bottom

Bearing my weight